Today is another one of those slow and weird days. I never actually touched on it yesterday, but it’s that time of the month, and it is savage. I have never experienced this kind of distortion in my 42 years. I know I haven’t spoken about this before, especially in my blog, but today I’m like, “Why not?” Why not indeed. Why not be the voice I needed to hear back when all of this was happening to me? Because no one told me about it. No one informed me that this was going to happen or that it would be like this.
Yeah, I’m not gonna act like I didn’t know about menopause, but I saw the females in my life go through that in their 50s, I’m not even there yet. This is the preliminary of all that shit waiting to happen, but the symptoms are close.
Since hitting 40, this phase of my life has been a culture shock, to be honest, and I feel cheated in a lot of ways, and as I said, no one told me about it. Not in school, not in the clinics, not in the GPs, not at home, no one. It’s disgusting, to be honest. We should be taught this from our teens. When they’re telling us about our bodies, our cycles, and our changes, etc, they should also let us know that, when we get into our 30s, it hits hard! Our bodies effectively go through another phase of puberty.
So for you who hasn’t yet hit or know anything about Perimenopause or Menopause, get on to Gemini right now and ask about it. Start preparing yourself for this next transitional stage of your life. If I had known about this in my late 20s, I would have looked after myself a lot better. I would have prepared myself better. As it goes, my periods now are all over the place; some months, I just skip one. But never have I experienced the level of pain I am having now. This makes my teenage cycles look like a walk in the park; it’s a complete recalibration of my pain threshold, and I thought I’d gone through physical pain before with labour, and I’ve had both kinds, normal birth and c-section, so I can compare. Sometimes this pain is so crippling, I can bearly move. However, I am fighting through it today, as I did yesterday. Today, I will split my time between the echo chamber (housework) and the digital world (bookwork). If anyone is interested in how I’m managing my journey through Perimenopause, I am happy to talk about it with you. If there are a few of you, maybe I’ll do a segment on my ‘Healing Compass‘ at some point. It’s an idea.
Right, I had my supplements, my brunch, and my cup of lemon, honey, and ginger ready to sip, and I’m off to finally start my day, after a bit of a lazy start.
I hope you are alright, and this finds you well. If not, keep ya chin up, and I’ll catch you soon.
You’ve got this <3
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